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Name: Jessica
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 12/14/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: thats me up there in the middle..with 2 of my best friends.. ashley and tati..
Expertise: SWIMMING, WATERPOLO, EATING, SLEEPING, MOVIES, RELAXING, HAWAII
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/22/2004
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| where have all the normal down-to-earth people gone? all i see are those who r trapped in their own self-centered worlds. the conformers, the cameleons, u know who u r. we're all guilty of it sometime or another. but it's those who make u wanna strive to be different that i miss. where hav u gone? | | |
| hey... its been a while lol.. well since i've officially become addicted to myspace i've forgotten my old friend. haha the one who is always there to listen to me.. my good ol xanga...geese isnt that sad. lol well anyways junior year is alright... kinda sucks. especially this new year. it just started out soooo bad. each day was officially the worst day of my new year. new years..kinda sucked-no midnight kiss..very depressing. my 1si new years out with my friends.. also very depressing. ya and i didnt even get to hang with cait.. at least i was with ashley..i havent talked to her in a while. i guess shes trying to hang out with her st lucy's friends more... whatever maybe i should try hanging with more mayfield people too. well marley's gona. and i'm still relly sad about it. i dont think she ever realized how muched i thought of her as a friend. she was one of the most real people at mayfield... there arent too many of them. i myself am subject to not being real either. and i need people like her around to remind myself that i dont have to be anything for anyone else. just me.. and that is enough. if they cant accept me for me then i'll never truly be happy tryint to be someone else with them and frankly they're not worth my god damn time. so ya right now its me and cait.. and mercy. i really hope i get to hang with mo and katie on the weekends a bit more now.. cuz they're awesome people and i luv those girls. well formal is about a week away and i have a date but NO DReSS! ahh! me and daniel senteno- should be fun. well i guess johnny is going with morga now officially.. i had a feeling shed end up taking him. ya he talked to ME for the 1st time in like forever. i've been trying to start talking to him again.. b/c my current guy friends are turning out to be assholes who apparently dont care enough about me to even try to keep being my friend. their too busy with their fucking pot. fuck pot.. its ruined some great people. i sit and think almost everyday about how i've lost one of my best friends.. and they dont even seem to care. i saw jacob last weekend and he wasnt even happy to see me. and he was being a real jerk about it too. i felt so awful... i just wanted to break down crying. hes really broken my heart. it tears me up inside to see a great person like him turn into someone else purly b/c he thinks people will like him better. i dont get it. i know 've been guilty of doing it sometimes but how can u just throw ur friends off to the side lke that? was i never that important to him? was i just another girl he talked to? if thats the case then hes a real jerk. sean too. cait put it best when she said is it really worth it? if he hadnt become a pot head hed have 2 really good friends and probably a girlfriend. but no. whatever... well since i've gotten that out of my system i think i'll go finish some hw haha ya right. good night | | |
| OMG i luv joe defazio! way cooler than johnny hahaha jk jk. at least joe actually calls me! haha thats right! lol and he left the longest message EVER! lol aww he's such a little cutie! i luv my lil boys! jp and joe! aww so precious! | | |
| hey wow i never update this nemore. but i'm bored so i will. ok well today didnt hav school. woohoo ya but it was a pretty boring day. plans just kept getting messed up. so cait just ended up picking me up and we just hung out. went to the mall- finally saw the new part-so awesome! lol- picked up caits sibs from st phillip! i luv those kids- JP! JAMES! DEVON! coolest kids ever lol. um ya- goin to SP for cornelia connely day- should be fun. um ya then we went to the fiesta, hung out with jacob as usual - saw a bit of tati, nicole, jazmine and tiff. matt and jenson were there too.. fun stuff. o and ashley of course. lol umm well i'm just gettin ready to go to vegas. o ya vegas baby! haha no its gonna be kinda lame- goin for sister.. bbl peace out~ | | |
| back at school.... ugh
ok well went to the SF vs AHS football game. ya SF beat them pretty badly. saw mackenzie and Kyle from work. ya kyle pretty hot. if only he werent such an ass. lol. mmm ya that reminds me... i saw johnny.. HAHA i'm JK!! he was nice. i think he winked at me lol. i was like ...ok.... haha ya but he wasnt very friendly. it was kinda weird. here i had wanted to see him all summer and he wasnt even excited to see me... WHAT EVER! britni and i decided that we dont need them anyways! lol ya i went to the game with morgan and lauren bigley- morgan drove. ya i cant seem to figure her out. 1 minute i'm not sure if she really likes me- like after raging waters... then i invite her to the jack johnson concert- and i think she has a good time. and well at school she seemed really friendly- but then again ever1 does. but i dunno i thought i could sense that she really actually did like me. w/e she probably does.. i guess i'm just not her ideal friend for goin out and stuff. o well w/e. ya but at the game she just always kept wandering off. so the 2nd time she went off w/ johnny, lauren and i and brit decided to go wander around. then when we get back she says she had been looking for us- so confusing. lol and ya lauren kept gon off too but thats expected. i dunno. i guess its just cuz i only know a handful of those guys and they knew them all. but the whole time i just felt like an annoying tag- along. and i HATE that feeling. it makes me feel like such a loser. and ya there were other girls from my class but their not real friends. i dunno. they're always nice and say hi and like " I LUV U JESSICA!" but w/e. that doesnt mean anything. w/e i'm tired and confused and cranky and i gotta get up early. hopefully typing this out just gets me thinking and helps clear stuff up in my head. sry to any1 who reads this if this doesnt make sense. it makes sense in my head. lol just not really written out haha. ok well i'm gonna stop now and go get sum sleep. later~ | | |
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